what happened to the old days
when women were fierce
and resilient
instead of defiantly emotional
and defensive



i have been so hurt
i only know
how to hold sadness
in the palms of my hands
i have done readings
and this is part of my destiny
i want to change
i am asking any gods
around me
to alchemically transform me
my term
is conditional
upon the offer
of that contract
this world
is an underbelly
of cyclical patterns
i do not plan
to repeat