I Understand
You say as you scratch the back of your head
As I reach for the plastic cup off ice cold water
I think you would grasp what I was saying
If you experienced it for yourself
You Understand
You say as you pick up your bag to leave my house
After I have just told you something so private
You are going to discard it along with the
Paper money you leave for me on my bed
You Understand
You say as you are already forgetting
The way in which you caressed my face
I pick up my knee-high red shiny boots
And strap on my neon green bra
You do not understand
I think that something deeper happened
Between you and me on this sheets
That has never happened with anybody
Else that has come in to my apartment
You do not understand
When I gave you something much more than
Flesh for the exchange of money
You give me to handle my breasts
I blush away the embarrassment off my cheeks
with pink minerals.
You cannot understand
That the meetings we had I developed
Something you never thought I should
As just a woman paid to hold your hand
And make our restaurant evenings
as delicious as I could
But what I understand
Is that I am just a bought beauty
To be a secret prize by your side
That can never be a wife
Because of a tarnished history.
kuramana 